Alone

Today was a lazy day. I didn’t finish watching Justice League in the car yesterday, so I continued and finished it this morning. In the afternoon, I slept in and then got up to study for a while. In the evening, my mom called and said they couldn’t finish the chicken and asked me to come over to eat it so it wouldn’t go to waste. I didn’t really feel like going—I thought it was a bit of a time-waster. It’s not like I could arrive right at mealtime, eat, and then immediately leave. I’d much rather be on my own. ...

Tomorrow, I have an exam in Guiyang for a public institution under the Department of Transportation, so today I’m rushing to catch a bus to Guiyang. As I left the house, I overheard two kids talking. One of them said: When I was little, I thought if a mouse got sick, it should take rat poison. Exams are truly expensive, especially since hotels turn into a seller’s market whenever there’s an exam—price hikes are inevitable. Many hotels have raised their rates so much that they practically deserve to be publicly shamed on utility poles. ...

The provincial exam results are out, and I ranked 16th—utterly ridiculous. It feels like the era of Kong Yiji has returned. Due to the poor employment environment, a large number of young people are flocking to civil service exams, creating a vicious cycle. Today is my mother’s birthday. At noon, I bought her two small cakes. In the evening, I took my mother for a walk around the neighborhood. She still seems a bit confused about directions and roads—perhaps she needs to walk the route a few more times. My parents and I don’t have deep conversations; we rarely talk about anything beyond daily life. ...

Human laziness is, to some extent, a manifestation of the law of inertia, and it inherently carries significant friction. A person lying down or at rest finds it difficult to maintain a state of continuous forward motion. 00:09 Getting ready for bed Spent most of today watching educational videos and discovered a highly capable teacher with solid values: The Right Path in Public Exams is Full of Vicissitudes. I also found his verbatim notes on interviews, which I’ve reposted on my blog: Verbatim Notes on Interview Insights | The Right Path in Public Exams is Full of Vicissitudes. ...

11:02 Totally Blind The website’s Sitemap kept generating empty files, and I spent time troubleshooting the issue. After a round of debugging, I realized the disable flag in the configuration file was set to true. The local hugo.yaml had already been changed to false, but I still wasted two hours. 1 2 3 4 sitemap: changefreq: always disable: false priority: 0.8 11:49 After Eating Liangfen pre-commit always makes me wait forever during submissions, and the node_modules directory also slows down Obsidian’s startup. So, I deleted it. ...

00:16 Time Flies So Fast It’s time to sleep again. Need to go to bed early, or else I won’t be able to fall asleep. Submitted all the code I wrote today. 10:34 Swelling and Pain Around My Eyes Not sure if it’s because I slept face down, but this morning I woke up with a painful swelling around my eyes. Nothing seems to help—lying still in bed, applying a cold towel, sitting in meditation, or even DIY remedies—nothing works. ...

09:36 Getting Ready to Get Up The sky is already bright, and I haven’t slept enough. So annoying. 12:30 Actually Getting Up Now Made a simple lunch of ham and shredded pork noodles—delicious! Then I started thinking about how many of the articles on my blog lack depth. Exposing shallow thoughts isn’t necessarily a good thing, and it also makes the blog structure messy. So I restructured the blog’s categorization logic: removed diary entries from the homepage and archive page, created a separate menu button for them, and organized them by year. ...