CSC

02:07 Insomnia Again Lately, I’ve been struggling with insomnia—thinking about my visa, about Xiaohuanhuan, about family, about friends. I just can’t seem to control my mind. 02:35 Got Up to Cook Instant Noodles Couldn’t sleep at all, so I thought about taking a melatonin pill. But I could clearly feel my stomach growling, and after watching Wu Banbao’s video, I decided to get up and cook a pack of instant noodles. Eating a bit more might help me sleep better anyway. Took the pill afterward and got ready to sleep. ...

Last night, I found the official CSC organization at the University of Alberta, which gave me a lot of peace of mind. This morning, I connected with two friends on Xiaohongshu (Little Red Book). One is a senior already studying at the University of Alberta, and the other is a fellow student preparing to enroll this year, just like me. I clarified my thoughts about the visa process and spent the morning gathering more information on Xiaohongshu. I also took photos for my visa application and was quite satisfied with how they turned out. After that, I started looking into the various forms I need to fill out, and before I knew it, the morning was gone. ...

This morning, I sent Huanhuan off to work. While hailing a taxi, I noticed the driver stopping by the roadside to buy a scallion pancake, so I got one too. After reluctantly saying goodbye to Huanhuan, I hurried back to Shuicheng. Still feeling quite hungry upon returning, I quickly cooked some rice and stir-fried two dishes to eat. It seems the mouse that had sneaked into the room earlier is no longer around. ...

After discussing with Mr. Hu, Mr. Liu, and my family, I decided to go to the office tomorrow to pick up my passport. I’m particularly nervous about dealing with work-related matters—all the procedures and approvals—but I have no choice but to face them. I reached out to former colleagues, mentors, and people involved in the relevant processes, chatting with them for a while. I’m also hoping to find time tomorrow to have a meal with them if possible. ...

c Today was a blur—I spent three hours gaming with Fei Ge. In the morning, the Emergency Management Bureau called me to ask some questions, marking the beginning of the investigation phase. In the evening, I suddenly learned that my CSC application had been approved, which immediately triggered my anxiety. So I wrote a letter to my advisor explaining my worries: letter_202506182210. What wasn’t mentioned in the letter was my reluctance to part with Huanhuan. Long-distance separation brings more pain to those in love, but it can also forge stronger support. ...

14:04 Checking CSC Just saw someone on Xiaohongshu say that the results for the CSC (China Scholarship Council) program in the Americas region have been released. I nervously checked immediately, but nothing yet. I’m still quite anxious—worried about the Emergency Management Bureau’s upcoming inspection, concerned that the Gui’an announcement might drop soon and schedule a physical exam, and now also stressing over the CSC results. 14:19 Can’t Stop Thinking About the War Ever since learning about the military actions between Iran and Israel, I can’t help but constantly refresh social media for updates during my free time. Maybe it’s a survival instinct, but as an individual, I can only be a bystander, which somehow deepens my anxiety. ...