Insomnia

Since Huanhuan’s family was heading back to their hometown in Yingwu, we got up very early today. By eight o’clock, we had finished breakfast, packed up, and set off. Dad also came with us, as we were giving him a ride to the coal mine where he works along the way. The road conditions were quite good, and there was no traffic congestion at all. Today’s driving was steadier than yesterday’s, but because I hadn’t slept well, my eyes were very uncomfortable, and I felt exhausted the whole time. ...

07:48 Didn’t Sleep Well Again Last Night Woke up before six this morning, feeling pretty rough. It’s my first time renting a car, and without an experienced driver by my side, I’m a little nervous. Spent quite a while learning online, now ready to get up. Driving Home At 9 a.m., Huanhuan and I went to pick up the car—a Chevrolet Cruze. This car rolls back a bit, which is slightly scary. ...

09:30 Waking Up Lately, my sleep schedule has been irregular, making it hard to fall asleep. When I lie awake and observe my thoughts, I realize that on the surface, I don’t seem stressed, but my mind is flooded with all sorts of distracting and annoying thoughts. Where do I need to go tomorrow? What do I need to do? And the day after? This is the most fragmented and complicated question. How’s my CSC application going? Why hasn’t it been processed yet? How should I respond to different possible outcomes? I might not finish all the food I bought—what should I cook tomorrow, or what should I do with it? Suddenly remembered an idea for fixing an unresolved bug on my website—feels like I should jump up and work on it right away. What other optimizations can I make? I haven’t read a book in a long time, and my mind feels empty. I really dislike short-form videos; I should treat them like enemies. What happens if I stay awake for too long? Will it affect important tasks tomorrow or the day after? Gotta take a photo of little Huanhuan. Oh, I should also shower tomorrow. What might my friends and family be up to these days… Suddenly feel like buying something, but I don’t have much money left—maybe look for alternatives. Then I remind myself not to buy non-essentials. And then I think, having a stable monthly income would be nice. I remember going a long time without insomnia—what’s going on lately? Need to reflect on what’s different about my current state and make sure I don’t slip into depression. …… 10:43 Spent Some Time Organizing My Blog Realized my old blog was a mess—lots of tiny, trivial posts that didn’t deserve standalone entries. Also, categorizing articles is an important issue—it needs to be logical. Ideally, it should be based on the file directory structure, with additional fine-tuning via frontmatter tags. ...

09:30 Insomnia Last Night Naturally, waking up this morning felt exhausting, and I had zero desire to get out of bed. Yet, my biological clock rudely dragged me awake early anyway. The main reason for the insomnia is my irregular sleep schedule. Deviating from my usual bedtime often leads to sleeplessness. Both the night before last and last night were like this. So far, I’ve found two effective solutions: Indulge my desires to exhaustion: By physically tiring myself out, I can trigger hormone release that helps me fall asleep faster. Don’t even try to sleep: Instead, learn something new—especially by listening to lectures, like math or English. The more attentively I listen, the quicker I drift off. The catch? As a lazy person, forcing myself to study is tough. It takes practice. 11:34 Cooking Lunch and Taking a Shower Stir-fried some cabbage, fried two eggs, and tossed in yesterday’s leftover fried potatoes and sausages. Mixed it all with rice in the pan, along with the boiled veggies from yesterday—delicious! ...